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| "...And Besides You, I desire nothing on earth." - Psalms 73:25b
This is the main reason why I am leaving. I desire to be in the Lord's will no matter how i feel, think, or reason. I have not finished school yet at Nyack College and I don't know if I will finish down in New Orleans or not. I don't have a job either, but am in the process of looking for one.
What I do know is that I am living for eternity. My life is not my own, but was brought with a price. I refuse to be complacent by living a status quo lifestyle. Therefore, I will submit to his Lordship over my life.
I WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE FOR THE KINGDOM OF GOD!!!
The Bible says in Luke 9:23 "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."
Jesus message was not do this and don't do that. He said "Follow me and I will make you fishers of men." Mark 1:17
That is all he requires of us. We make Christianity so hard sometimes when in reality is really simple. I am learning more and more my need to abide in the vine and keep in step with the spirit.
My prayer for you is that you become so disasified with with an average life and be consumed with the heart of God. When we stop building our own kingdom, that is when we find true freedom.
Live for Eternity 
"...Behold, I send my messager ahead of you, Who will prepare Your way; The voice of one crying in the wilderness. 'Make ready the way of the Lord, Make His paths straight." -Mark 1:2+3 | | |
| so i don't know if i should be writing this on here. maybe i should use more discernment, but i feel the need to express myself, release some things, and vent a little bit.
i desire companionship. true, genuine, real, authentic, vulnerable, and an open relationship with someone.
i don't want to try to put on a front or feel the need to impress someone or be someone i'm not. i want to be me and be accepted as that.
every time i see people in relationships, whether boyfriend/girlfriend, engaged, or married, that feeling of being incomplete rises up in my soul.
i know that i am suppose to be completely whole in Jesus and him alone. i know that i am created for relationship with him and to abide in him. he called me his bride, which is hard for me to understand, but i know it's true.
If i am suppose to be completely whole in Him, why do i still feel empty, unfinished and like there's a piece missing in my life...?
aaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!
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| after going over my blogs for the past year i have come to the conclusion that i didn't blog enough. there was so much more that i could of let you know about that was happening in my life and what i was going through, but i guess i was too busy or i am not that much of an emotional kinda guy or i am not able to express them that well in words. how sad. moving on...
this has probably been one of the hardest years for me in almost every area. i think i been the busiest i have ever been before with full-time school, ministry, work, drums, church, and some other things. These things drained me physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and probably some other "ally" in one way or another.
but through it all, Jesus has been faithful and true.
i actually made a new years resolution for 2008 which was to read the bible in a year. i read the whole thing before randomly, and every time i tired to do it in a structure pattern, it never worked. this was caused by me getting "bored" in Leviticus or Numbers and stopping. This year i am proud of myself, because i actually did it. praise the lord.
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| please read!!!
isn't Jesus
amazing?!!! in the midst of our busy, chaotic lives we can still find
peace, love, security and hope in our firm foundation. i been thinking
about this a lot lately for many reasons. personally, my life has been
extremely busy with test, papers, homework, ministry, trying to find
health insurance, peace of mind, true friends, time to work-out, spend
time with Jesus, see people for who they truly are, impact a generation
for Christ, teach the drums, impart wisdom and love to people who are
broken, lost, and in need of a savior.
the Holy Spirit has
been drawing me to pray a lot more then i have been lately. it's been
fantastic. i love the fact that we can pray with confidence to a holy,
righteous, pure, and ready to answer Abba Father who cares about our
needs no matter how big or small they may seem. so with that said,
"cast your cares on him, because he cares for you." we don't have to
live in fear, because of the recession that could be coming, terrorist
attacks, hurricans, lose of a job/friendship or dream. we don't have to
live in unstablitiy or a life of worry, doubt, or depression. the devil
lies to us for so long, and we start to believe it.
it's a
shame to me and a deep frustation to my spirit that we live our lives
with lease then who we truly are. Because of Jesus sacrifice we are
co-heirs with him. we are seated in heavenly realms. we have power to
heal, deliever, speak life into people and ourselves, encourage others,
set free, prophecy, and walk as Jesus walked.
we say we believe the Bible entirely, but do we really???
we say that we are Christians and follow Jesus, but do we really? if we
really did, we would walk, talk, heal, and have a compassion for the
lost that will bring us to the point of dying to ourself and living for
others. we live for ourselves to the point of building our own kingdom,
which will pass away, and forget or don't care that people are going to
hell every day. we live for self, and watch others suffer.
we need to wake up!!!
we need to get off our butts, stop playing church and our lives worthy
of the call. God has called you to do mighty exploits for his Kingdom.
if we are really bought with a price, why don't we live like it? we say
we surrended, we sing songs like "Lord i give you my heart", but is
that only in pretense.
we are coming to a day when there
will not be room for playing the christian game. God said if your
lukewarm, he will spite you out. Revival is coming, are we ready for
it? we say we want revival, but why are we are willing to live without it.
please hear my heart. i love each and everyone of you and want the best
for, but we keep living for our desires, even though they might be good
in nature, but they might not be best. let's stop living for what will
pass away and live for eternity!!!
IT'S TIME TO SEEK GOD!!! GET SERIOUS TODAY!!! KNOW WHO YOU IN CHRIST AND EXAMINE WHO YOU ARE LIVING FOR: JESUS OR YOURSELF?
i look forward to the day that we see people coming into the kingdom
daily, healing the sick by our shadow, taking authority, walking in the
spirit, seeing delieverance, setting people free and prophesying!!!
this should not be some good idea or past-time, but a reality.
DO YOU BELIEVE IT?
i know i do.
"if
my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray
and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from
heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land."
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| hey everyone, what's up? i have a new phone number!!!
here it is: 845-249-6933
you better call me and catch up. holla back. one.
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